Holding pattern or simply biding my time???

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/holding+pattern
Excerpt:
holding pattern

n.

1. A usually circular pattern flown by aircraft awaiting clearance to land at an airport.

2. Informal A state of waiting or delay; a static situation: environmental groups that wish to put oil exploration into a holding pattern.

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/biding+time
Excerpt:

1. To remain in a condition or state.

2.

a. To wait; tarry.

b. To stay: bide at home.

c. To be left; remain.

v.tr.

past tense bided To await; wait for.

Idiom:

bide (one's) time

To wait for further developments.

Trust Me Fray
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMof8VrGm1A&feature=related

Juliana Theory Shell of a Man
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How To Save A Friend Fray
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You Found Me Fray
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I want one day for all of this to end and I want to experience PEACE in my life but I am coming to the conclusion that it isn't going to happen in my lifetime.  hmmmmmm  At times I have complete faith that it will but as of late, I'm almost positive it's not going to happen.  :(

I now think Mike Garrett's sister was murdered by her husband and then there's Don Buttrey's wife????????  OMG, I didn't give either deaths much time when they happened but now with everything I'm learning in today's world and the way Bobby reacted to Dana, OMG!!! 

I cannot believe Bobby shot his pinkie off just weeks after Noelle beat Dana.  .....and the way he talked to me on the phone.  I now understand how Alford felt about Bob when I was there.  ...anyways, I guess it will work out the way it's supposed to or not. 

I don't feel that I've accomplished anything with the kids and that hurts.  I am feeling rather hopeless tonight and have been for a while lately.